Amnesia

I drove by all the place we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss
How it felt the way you tasted
and even though your friends tell me you are doing fine
Are you somewhere felling lonely even though she's right beside you?
When she says those words that hurt you
Do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
I remember the day you told me you are leaving
I remember the tears down you face
and the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
and forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
and the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
The pictures that you sent me they are still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them
I'll admit I feel alone
and all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you are happy
It hurts thatt you have moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
and you'd never slip away
and you never hear me say
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I;m not fine at all
-5sos 'amnesia' sheila's version-